
Seek me, call me, I’ll be waiting Love
& Violence Some concepts within have been
respectfully borrowed from James O'Barr.
Overhead, a crow hung his head, cawed in
frustration, and then leaped from the crumbling ledge, flapping its black wings
as it soared into the cool night sky. *
* *
Perched on a ledge in a different part of the vast city, the diminutive
vampiress held a newspaper in her hands and read the comics section with great
interest. One cartoon, which
depicted a cow cooking hamburgers on a grill while being berated by his peers,
amused her in particular, and she chuckled as she read the dialogue aloud. “You’re
sick, Jessy! Sick, sick, sick!”
she murmured, her laughter quickly turning into a loud cackle that carried over
the rooftops and echoed off the artificial canyon walls of the metropolis.
“Brilliant!” Down below,
people turned their heads skyward as they caught the sounds of the vampire’s
laughter, and the more perceptive ones shivered slightly, though they knew not
why. The laughter went on for well
over a minute, as the vampiress was tremendously entertained by the simple
cartoon, and though most people let it fall into the background of the city’s
cacophony, some of them picked up their pace along the sidewalks, suddenly in a
hurry to get home. If the vampiress
had taken the time to notice their reaction, she would have been pleased, but
she was still too absorbed by the cartoon cows to pay heed to anything else.
At least she was until the crow landed on the ledge a short distance away
from her, cawed loudly, and gave her a pointed look. The
vampiress looked up from the comics page and raised a thin, black eyebrow at the
big bird. “What do you want? Don’t you have somebody to watch over or something to that
effect?” She turned back to the
comics and began to chuckle again. The crow
hopped along the edge, drawing closer to the black-haired vampiress, and he
cawed again, more insistently this time. She
ignored him, instead focusing her attention on Calvin & Hobbes, and
the bird moved even closer. Finally,
after the bird was practically sitting on her lap, she looked down at him and
said, “While I respect the fact that your kind has been defying the reapers
for centuries, I am not a babysitter.
Your charges are your business, not mine.
If you can’t get them to do what you want them to do, maybe you should
choose them more carefully. Now go
away.” The crow’s
response was loud and extremely fierce, and he flapped his wings several times
in emphasis. The
vampiress let go of the paper and let it flutter on the city’s air currents as
it lazily drifted to the streets below. She
scowled slightly at the crow and said, “I am Raven, and I fear nothing.
The reapers already want my head, so if I were to help you, it wouldn’t
be any more hot water in my case. I’ve
evaded them for hundreds of years now, longer than you have, and I will likely
be evading them long after your kind has finally been discovered.
I simply don’t want to bother with one of your little revenge
scenarios.” The crow
cawed several more times, and Raven shrugged.
“See if I care. If she
doesn’t have the guts to get the job done, then send her off, because she’s
a spineless coward. Balance the
scales some other way.” The crow
leaped into the air so that he was eye-level, flapped his wings several times to
stay aloft, and practically screamed in the vampiress’ face.
He then dropped back down to the ledge and looked at her expectantly.
“You are beginning to annoy me,” Raven said, narrowing her eyes.
“Go away.” The black
bird squawked again, and the vampiress suddenly lashed out with one of her
hands, in which a dagger with a gleaming emerald blade had appeared.
The metal sliced through the air, where the crow had been a second
earlier. He cawed angrily at her
from further down the ledge, and she hissed at him, sounding like a furious cat.
The blade disappeared back into the sleeve of her black leather jacket,
and she turned her entire body to face the crow, crouching as though she were
about to pounce. “You
wanted my attention, balancer. Now
you’ve got it,” she softly purred. The
vampiress slowly moved forward, baring her ivory fangs, her long hair hanging
down nearly to the dirty concrete ledge, and her body seemed to flow like a
liquid instead of a creature made of bone, muscle, and sinew.
To his credit, the crow held his ground and put his wings out in a
defensive stance, cawing in such a way that it sounded like he was growling. The two began to slowly move towards one another, the
crow’s dark eyes locked onto the vampiress’ amethyst ones, and neither one
of them showed any sign of backing down. Raven
lunged, moving faster than the human eye could follow, and the crow sprang
directly upward with equally supernatural speed, diving back down to deliver a
sharp peck to the vampiress’ head before flapping a safe distance away.
Hissing again, the vampiress rushed at the crow, this time with a
blood-red dagger in addition to the emerald one, and the big bird avoided them
by an extremely narrow margin, losing the tips of several tail feathers in the
process. He wheeled
around in the air and began flapping away with a speed that no earthly crow
could manage, and after resheathing her daggers, Raven took off after him,
laughing wildly as she leaped from rooftop to rooftop in pursuit, her powerful
legs propelling her over alleys and streets with tremendous ease.
When the crow rose higher to soar over a skyscraper, the vampiress
launched herself into the air impossibly high, matching the bird’s altitude,
and neatly landed on the roof, continuing her pursuit with a smug guffaw. “You’ll
have to do better than that!” she gleefully called after her quarry, which she
was rapidly gaining on despite the crow’s preternatural speed.
The bird suddenly veered to the side and dove through the air, crossing a
busy street from forty stories up, and Raven gracefully skidded across the
rooftop, changing her direction. Without
the slightest bit of hesitation, she flung herself off the skyscraper, hot on
the crow’s tail, cackling as the cold upper air of the city hit her in the
face, enjoying the best chase she’d had in some time. The crow
angled towards the front of an apartment building, dodging several electrical
wires before zipping through a partly-open window and into a darkened apartment.
Raven’s daggers appeared in her hands and she slashed through the thick
cables in a shower of sparks, plunging the entire block into darkness, and then
she nimbly landed on the railing of the fire escape outside of the apartment
window for a split-second before leaping and smashing through the glass into the
apartment. “Come out,
come out, wherever you are!” bellowed the vampire, grinning from ear to ear as
she spun her daggers around in her hands so fast that they looked like sawblades. Her eyes
glowed bright red in the dark apartment, which looked like it had already been
ransacked; the broken glass her entrance had sprayed all over the place only
further added to the effect. The
vampiress slowly moved forward, her boots softly crunching the glass into silica
dust as she looked this way and that, searching for her target.
Though it was nearly pitch-black within, her vampiric eyes could see
everything clearly, and if the crow had been intending to hide in the shadows,
he’d made a major tactical error. The
vampire’s sharp ears picked up the sounds of soft sobbing, and she turned
towards it, moving purposefully across the debris-littered wooden floor.
She reached the other side of the room, still on the alert for the crow,
and found a door that was ajar, open just enough that a large bird could have
scurried through on foot. The
sobbing was emanating from behind the door, and Raven sighed, knowing that she
was being played. The crow was
clever, but she’d been playing games like this for ages now, and she knew all
the tricks. But after such a good
chase, she felt a grudging respect for the crow’s determination to do his job,
enough that she allowed herself to be played for the bird’s purposes. Besides, after following the crow this far, she didn’t
particularly feel like just leaving without something interesting occurring
first, so she kicked the door off its hinges and stomped into the room. The
windowless room was pitch-black, and on the floor, next to the overturned bed,
sat a red-haired girl in her mid-twenties, dressed in tattered black and red
clothes. Her face had been buried
in her hands, but when Raven kicked her way in, she looked up at the vampiress,
surprise and worry on her pale, tear-streaked face.
Perched on the bed frame, as though standing watch over the girl, was the
crow, who regarded the diminutive intruder warily, especially when she pointed
the red-bladed dagger at him. “There’s
nowhere for you to go now, my fine feathered friend, our little chase is at an
end,” she purred, taking a slow step forward.
“The only way out of this room is through me, and if you try that, a
skewered crow you shall be! Quoth
Raven, nevermore!” The
vampiress threw back her head and laughed madly: she never failed to amuse
herself. “Don’t
hurt him,” whimpered the girl sitting on the floor, looking up at Raven
imploringly. “He’s just trying
to help.” The
vampiress rolled her eyes. “Well,
he’s not doing a very good job of it. Otherwise
he wouldn’t have had to come to me.” Her
nostrils detected the scent of death on the girl, and she reckoned that the girl
had been dead for a bit over two days now.
The balancers were very good at retarding the effects of decay and
corruption, and a regular mortal wouldn’t have noticed anything, but Raven’s
nose was another story entirely. The girl
shook her head sadly. “It’s not
his fault. I . . . I just can’t .
. .” Raven huffed
in annoyance, blowing some of her hair upwards.
“Can’t what?” she demanded, glaring at the sorrowful form on the
floor. She spun her daggers around
one more time and then neatly slipped them back into their forearm sheathes,
beneath the sleeves of her jacket. When
the girl looked down at the floor and began sobbing again at the vampiress’
question, Raven hissed in disgust. “Stop
that!” The
vampiress lunged forward, grabbed a handful of her tangled, dirty hair, and
violently yanked her to her feet, causing her to cry out pitifully.
She stood nearly a foot taller than Raven, putting her at almost six feet
tall, and once she was on her feet, the vampiress shoved her back against the
wall of the bedroom so hard that plaster cracked and fell from both the wall and
the ceiling. The crow
squawked in distress, flapping his wings, and before he knew it, the vampiress
was in his face, her eyes scant inches from his, and they blazed with the vast
power contained in Raven’s compact form.
“You got away from me before because I let you.
You’re alive now because your chutzpah amused me.
You wanted my help, and now you’ve got it.
Whether you like it or not,” she said, her voice icy.
The crow stood stock-still on the bed frame, not breaking eye-contact
with her, but not making any other moves, either. “And as
for you,” said the vampiress, turning back to the girl, who was now crying
hysterically, “Tell me what they did to you.”
When no answer was forthcoming, Raven grabbed the girl’s chin and
forced her to make eye-contact. “Tell
me!” Once their
eyes met, the vampiress’ mind reached out and brushed against the girl’s,
momentarily washing into her consciousness like a superheated wave, and when it
receded, Raven knew everything she needed to know. Scattershot
images flashed through her mind, and she relived the last few hours of
Sirenna’s life, as well as the two days following her death, in a matter of
seconds. She saw the apartment as it was before, when it was home to
two young women in love, a fortress of happiness against a world that wasn’t
ready to understand them. Sirenna
and Io had been friends since childhood, and when they’d grown up, their love
for one another had taken a different form, one which had alienated them from
both their families and old friends, causing them to uproot and come to the
city, where they created their little fortress of happiness.
They didn’t need the rest of the world, because all they needed was
each other, boisterous, brave Io providing the perfect counterpoint to gentle,
timid Sirenna. They were yin and
yang, in perfect balance with one another, and ready to spend the rest of their
lives together. Raven saw
the fortress of happiness torn apart on the terrible night that a gang of young
men had decided to take from Sirenna and Io what the two lovers had kept between
themselves. Fearless, dark-skinned
Io had known fear and terror as they’d first savaged Sirenna, and quiet, pale
Sirenna had screamed so much when they’d made Io helpless beneath their
combined assault that they’d had to gag her before they could continue.
These five men completely destroyed a little world that night, a world of
peace and love, a world that had never sought to bother anybody or cause another
person harm of any kind. They
obliterated a happy little world because of nothing more than jealously, lust,
and ignorance. And the larger world
around them hadn’t cared a whit, because nobody in the apartment building had
particularly liked “those lesbians.” When Sirenna
had awakened from her cold sleep the next night, she was obsessed with giving Io
a proper burial, regardless of what the crow told her.
Before anything else could be done, Io needed to be put to rest by the
only person that had cared about her. So
with the crow quietly following along, Sirenna had taken her lover’s broken,
battered body and buried it beneath their favorite tree in the park a few blocks
away from their apartment. Anybody
that saw Sirenna tearfully carrying Io had given the grief-stricken girl a wide
berth; in the city, nobody cared about you, not even when you were dead.
Sirenna had attempted to bury herself next to Io, but the crow had
managed to talk her out of it, trying to tell Sirenna what needed to be done to
restore the balance that had been upset. An
eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, and five lives for a happy little world. Sirenna had
tried. Sirenna had failed.
And the crow, discouraged and wanting to help the girl no matter the
cost, had sought out a legend, a dangerous and mercurial vampire known in some
cultures as the Great Destroyer. If anybody
could teach Sirenna how to kill, it was Raven. “So,”
said the vampiress, “They gang-raped and murdered you both.” Weeping,
Sirenna nodded, casting her eyes down once again. “And just
a little while ago you had a chance to kill them with the gun that Io had kept
under the sink in case of emergency. You
could have avenged both yourself and her.” Sirenna
nodded again. “And you
failed.” The girl
moaned. Raven’s
eyes narrowed as she regarded Sirenna for a long time, and she shook her head
and spat. “Are you such a weakling
that you can’t even avenge your own death, much less the death of your lover
and only friend?!” She shoved the
girl back against the wall, causing more plaster to rain down. “Pathetic!” “I can’t
do it!” cried Sirenna. “I just
. . . can’t!” “Why?”
asked Raven, her voice soft and cold while her eyes burned brightly. Her voice
choked by her sobs, Sirenna said, “I don’t . . . believe in violence. I don’t want . . . to hurt anybody!” “Even
after what they did to you? After
what they did to Io?” demanded the vampiress. Sirenna
gestured helplessly with her dirty and bloodied hands.
“What good would that do? It
won’t bring Io back! It won’t
fix anything! Io’s dead and so am
I!” she wailed. “Why did I have
to come back? Why couldn’t I just
die with Io?!” Raven folded
her arms over her chest. “Maybe
if you’d stop blubbering and just do what you need to do, you wouldn’t have
to worry about that.” “I
can’t kill them!” Sirenna cried, her voice high and anguished.
“I can’t even swat a housefly! I
don’t believe in killing, because it never fixes anything! Io loved me because of what I am, and I can’t change that!
I won’t change that! I’m
not a killer!” “Well,
you’re certainly a coward,” Raven sneered. Clenching
her hands into trembling fists, Sirenna keened, “Life is precious, don’t you
understand that? All life!
Nobody has the right to decide who lives and who dies, especially not
me!” “I’m
over two thousand years old,” replied the vampiress, sounding bored.
“And I certainly don’t need to be lectured about life by a dead girl
in her mid-twenties. The number of
people I’ve killed completely dwarfs the number of people you’ve ever known.” “Then why
don’t you kill them?” hissed Sirenna, her sadness starting to
transform into frustrated anger. “What’s
five more to you?” Raven
shrugged. “Because that’s not
the way things work. You were
brought back to avenge the deaths of yourself and Io, and if I were to kill
those men, it would be meaningless. You
killing them will lead to absolution, and the restoration of an upset balance in
life.” She paused.
“I think.” Pointing
towards the crow, she said, “Ask him. He’s
the one that brought you back. I
try not to meddle around with this sort of thing, as I’m in enough trouble
with the reapers as it is, and drawing their attention at this point in time
would be inconvenient and annoying.” Both women
looked towards the large black bird, and he offered nothing more than a firm
caw, which answered nothing. “Exactly,”
said Raven. “The balancers’
reasons are their own. Why they
choose whom they choose and precisely why they do what they do is for them to
know and the rest of us to guess at. Perhaps
someday I’ll sit down with them and trade a few of my secrets in exchange for
their own. In the meantime, all I
know is that they’re rogue souls challenging the deities that be by bringing
wronged souls back over the line to exact revenge and balance the scales of
justice, as it were, and right now, you’re in the middle of one of their
balancing acts. At least until your
body decays to the point where it can’t go on any longer and they have to give
you up.” The crow
sharply cawed, clearly angered by the bit of information the vampiress had
dropped. Raven raised an eyebrow.
“Don’t scream at me just because you chose to withhold that from her.
At least I’m being honest.” Sirenna
shook her head. “I won’t do it. I’m not going to hurt anybody.
I don’t want Io’s memoriam to be more bloodshed.
She never hurt anybody, and she wouldn’t want me to kill in her name.
I’ll just sit here until I die again.” “Well,”
said Raven, “You can do that, which is wimping out, if you ask me.
Or we can go this route.” The girl
frowned. “What route?” She never
saw the punch coming, and she hit the wall so hard she nearly went through it,
and then fell to the floor, unconscious before she landed. *
* *
Raven sat on the ledge of the skyscraper, idly swinging her legs over the
edge and looking down at the traffic thirty stories below, waiting for Sirenna
to wake up. The crow sat on the
ledge a short distance away, quietly contemplating events from the looks of it,
not that the vampiress really cared. She
had a challenge laid out in front of her now, and she was going to follow
through on it. After all, there was
plenty more to do with life than sit on the edges of buildings and read comic
pages, which she could do any time she wanted, any way.
She also felt compelled to do this, because
despite the fact that the girl was naïve and in denial, she had a good heart
and truly had loved her girlfriend, and the ability to love truly and
unselfishly was something that Raven respected.
But the girl was going to have to realize a few truths about life before
she went beyond this plane of existence, and though she didn’t want to know
them now, the vampiress had spoken with enough ghosts and lost souls to know
that Sirenna was better off in the long run if she took the harder road.
Eternal regrets were something that could destroy a person, regardless of
whether they were living or dead.
Sirenna slowly stirred, moaning softly, and
Raven turned on the ledge to look at her. “It
took you long enough to wake up. I
didn’t even hit you all that hard.”
The girl sat up and glared at Raven.
“Haven’t I gone through enough?
Why don’t you leave me alone?”
“What, you think that you’ve earned a
respite? You think that you get a
reprieve after a certain amount of suffering?” asked the vampiress.
She laughed scornfully. “Welcome
to the real world, child. The only
thing that you’re entitled to here is pain and suffering, and it doesn’t
matter if you’ve suffered all your life, because somebody’s waiting right
around the corner to give you some more. As
a matter of fact, I’m often the one that does that.”
“Just leave me alone,” said Sirenna,
shaking her head. “All I want is for this to be over.”
“It can be over in pretty short
order,” said Raven, “If you’d stop whining and just take care of
business.”
“You don’t understand.”
“I understand perfectly well.
Better than you, as a matter of fact,” the vampiress said.
“You’re under the assumption that love is nothing but hugs, kisses,
and roses, and that love starts and ends there.
It’s never occurred to you that love is more than just writing poetry
and having sex. It’s also
standing up for your lover when they can’t defend themselves. It’s also violently ripping someone to pieces when
they’ve hurt your lover. It’s
murdering the scum that killed your lover, so that not only can she rest in
peace, but yourself as well. Not to
mention the fact that you’re ensuring that they can’t tear apart any other
pairs of lovers like they did to you.”
Looking at Sirenna, Raven extended her ivory
fangs and said, “Love has its darker side, child, and it’s just as valid as
romance and flowers. Sometimes even more so.”
The girl said nothing, and she looked away
from the vampiress, tears running down her face again.
“I just want this to end. I
never wanted this.”
Raven gestured towards Sirenna.
“Come here. Now.” Her voice was like the coldest iron and broached absolutely
no argument.
The redhead, after meeting Raven’s eyes
again, reluctantly got to her feet and stepped over to the ledge where the
vampiress was sitting. Raven
pointed down towards the park that rose out of the middle of the city like an
oasis of green in a metal-and-glass desert, and Sirenna realized that she was
only a few blocks from her apartment. Somewhere
within the gently rolling knolls of foliage of the park, beneath an oak tree
that they’d always picnicked under, Io quietly lay in her earthen grave, and
the knowledge was almost enough to make Sirenna run away from the sight.
As it was, her tears doubled, washing her face of grime yet again, but
leaving the grief and pain intact.
The black-haired vampiress pointed down
towards a young man and woman walking hand-in-hand across the grass, likely
moving towards the benches around the little pond near the center of the park.
“You see them? Two lovers,
just like Io and yourself, though of a more mundane sexual persuasion.”
“Yes,” replied Sirenna tonelessly, the
view of the cheerful couple tearing at her heart worse than any knife could.
At this time last week, that had been her and Io.
At this time just three days ago, that had been her and Io.
That should have been her and Io fifty years from now.
But everything had been ruined, and there was nothing but hurt now.
“They certainly look happy, don’t
they?” Raven asked, her tone light, almost merry.
The girl nodded, biting her lip.
The vampiress stood up and stretched as
though just getting out of bed, and then idly cracked her neck first to the left
and then to the right. She finished
by cracking her knuckles and turning her back to the park, so that she was
looking down at Sirenna. “Too bad
I’m going to go kill them.”
Before Sirenna could even blink, Raven put
her arms out at her sides as though crucified, cackled loudly, and then allowed
herself to fall backwards off the ledge, plummeting headfirst towards the
sidewalk thirty stories below, laughing all the way.
“What?!”
Sirenna watched Raven plunge downwards for a couple of seconds, then
looked at the couple walking across the park, and then at the crow, who was
peering over the ledge to watch Raven as well.
“She didn’t mean it, did she? She’s
not really going to kill them, is she?” The
crow offered a low caw in answer, apparently not sure himself.
Seconds before impact, the wind of her
descent whistling past her ears and rippling her hair, Raven rolled and spun so
that she was right-side up again, and when her feet hit the sidewalk, it partly
caved in from the force of her momentum with a loud shattering crash, and the
vampiress expelled some of the force by easily dropping into a crouch.
The few people that were on the sidewalk at this time of night stared at
her in amazement, not sure whether they were imagining this or not, and one old
wino turned and ran away as fast as he could.
The vampiress grinned: she so loved to make a dramatic entrance.
She stood up and stepped out of the little
crater she’d made, starting towards the park.
A man dressed in a suit hurried up to her and asked, “Are you all
right, lady? Holy shit, I can’t
believe—“
Raven shoved him aside without even looking
at him, sending him bouncing along the concrete, and stepped off the curb into
the street. She strode across the asphalt, her eyes on the couple a
distance away, oblivious to what was going on behind them, and she paid no heed
to the light traffic swerving around her with the sound of blaring horns, angry
curses, and squealing tires. From
somewhere above and behind her, she heard Sirenna shouting at her, but didn’t
respond in any way other than smiling knowingly.
After crossing the street, Raven stepped up
onto the sidewalk, and then neatly leaped over the ten-foot-tall iron fence,
landing in the grass on the other side of it and continuing along, the gap
between her and the unaware couple slowly closing.
When she was just a short distance behind them, her ears picked the sound
of more yelling, the screech of tires, and the honking of horns.
The crow swooped by overhead, angrily cawing at her, and she ignored him.
The couple, however, stopped and looked up
at the big bird, and the cessation of their motion enabled Raven to close the
gap in just a few more strides. With
a snicker, the vampiress roughly knocked them to the ground, causing them both
to cry out in surprise and pain. “What’s
the big idea?” angrily demanded the young man as he started to get back up a
few moments later, clutching at the shoulder Raven had shoved.
His girlfriend held her other shoulder, looking both irritated and
confused by the appearance of the small, dark woman who smirked back at them. “Oh,
I don’t know,” replied the vampiress with a shrug.
“I thought maybe I’d kill you tonight just for fun.” “Say
what?” The young man was back on
his feet again, still holding his shoulder, and he growled, “You’d better
step off, if you know what’s good for you.” “Ah,
yes. But you see, I’ve always
been one of those types that just goes and looks for trouble, whether it’s
good for me or not,” Raven said, and she moved so swiftly that the young man
didn’t even see her drive her knee into his stomach while she doubled him over
with an elbow between the shoulderblades. He
certainly felt it, though, and he went down in a gasping heap as Raven did the
same thing to his girlfriend, who reacted in much the same way. “So,
which one of you wants to die first?” Raven asked pleasantly, kneeling down in
front of the gagging man and grabbing him by his longish hair and turning his
face up towards her. “Would you
like to do the chivalrous thing and try to stop me from killing her, or are you
a realist that would prefer to get your death over with?”
He was too busy trying to regain his breath so he could properly groan in
agony to manage a response to Raven’s question. “Well,
I suppose I’ll kill you first, just like a dragon chewing up a knight before
he makes a light snack of the princess.”
The vampiress cocked her fist back and chuckled. “If you thought I hit you hard before, wait’ll I hit you this
time. Your grandfather will in all
likelihood soil himself.” “STOP!”
A hand grabbed Raven’s wrist and yanked back on it.
Sirenna tugged on the vampiress’ arm as hard as she could, using her
supernaturally-enhanced strength to pull Raven away from the helpless man. The
vampiress let go of the mortal and turned towards the girl, her eyes dancing.
“You want me to leave them alone?” she asked, her voice oozing scorn.
“You’re going to have to make me.”
She delivered a blinding backhand to Sirenna’s face that sent the girl
spiraling through the air like a barrel-rolling jet until she crashed into a
tree and fell to the ground. “Now,
where was I? Ah yes,” said Raven,
turning back towards her original targets.
The woman, despite her injured shoulder, was trying to help her boyfriend
get back up, though he was hurting bad enough that she wasn’t having much
luck. When she saw the vampiress
grinning at them, she screamed. “I’ll
take that as a compliment!” guffawed Raven, throwing back her head as she
laughed. Her laughter was
short-lived, however, as Sirenna tackled her from behind, causing them both to
tumble across the grass in an out-of-control tangle of arms and legs. Before
Sirenna could figure out what to do next, Raven was hammering her in the face
with a fist that felt harder than concrete, and then the dead girl was swung
through the air in an arc by her wrist, until her brief flight was stopped by a
violent collision with the ground. She
didn’t even have a chance to catch her breath before she was in the air again,
launched by a sharp kick to the ribs. Despite
being dead and unable to feel most pain, the kind of damage Raven was dealing
out was actually enough to register, and she yowled as agony exploded in her
midsection. The
vampiress moved so fast that it seemed as though she had a twin, because she was
there to intercept Sirenna in mid-air, slamming her in the stomach with another
crunching punch, and then flinging her to the ground by her ankle.
She hit hard enough to leave an impression in the earth, which was still
somewhat soft from the recent rains, and she lay there on her back, staring up
at the moon, as Raven gently touched down and immediately started towards the
couple again. “It
would seem that the time has come for you to flee, because your would-be savior
is nothing but a weakling, easily defeated in battle, leaving only me!” Raven
gleefully cried out, advancing on the helpless mortals, “Quoth Raven, nevermore!” “Leave
us alone! We haven’t done
anything to you!” shrieked the woman, now trying to drag her boyfriend away. “So?
You think that entitles you to anything?
I can do anything I want! I
am Raven!” shouted the vampiress jubilantly, giving the mortal girl a kick
that sent her flying. Overhead,
the crow started cawing over and over, swooping low over Sirenna, urging her to
get back up, and though it broke her heart, she understood at last.
The real world was an ugly, harsh place where innocence and love were
usually crushed by those who wielded any sort of power.
Might made right, and sometimes the only way to say “I love you” to
someone was to kill in their name, and the bastards couldn’t be wished away or
ignored: if you wanted them to leave you alone, you had to be an even bigger
bastard. The revelation almost made
her glad she was dead, because Sirenna, with a heart as gentle as a kitten’s,
wasn’t sure she wanted anything to do with a world like this any longer.
In fact, she was sure of it. She
closed her eyes as the mortal girl pleaded for the life of her boyfriend, and
all she wanted was to be back in Io’s arms again, safe and warm. She would have given anything for it, anything at all . . .
even the morals of peace and love that she’d held dear since she’d been a
child. Those men had violated and
killed her body, and if she wanted to be reunited with the one they’d taken
from her, she had to finish the job on her soul, so that she could be reborn on
the other side. It’d be over
soon, then she could be with Io again, and she’d never have to come back to
this awful world ever again. Sirenna
opened her eyes and got to her feet, the crow hovering over her head, giving her
the strength to be something that she wasn’t.
“Let them go,” she said to Raven, her voice strained and weary. The
vampiress was taunting both of the lovers as she jerked them around by their
necks, and they both weakly struggled in her grasp as she turned and laughed at
Sirenna disdainfully, not even bothering with a witty remark. The crow cawed, and the dead girl was suddenly upon the
vampiress, punching, clawing, kicking, and even biting, fighting with a manic
fury that came from being angry at Raven, angry at herself, angry at those that
had ruined what had been a good life, and angry at a world that just didn’t
give a damn. “Run!”
she screamed at the couple as she smashed an elbow into Raven’s face right
before she dodged a punch that whistled when it went by.
She’d never been in anything even resembling a fight, save for playful
couch wrestling with Io, but she seemed to know what to do anyway, and the crow
circled around above their heads, cawing encouragement to her. Sirenna
rained blows down upon Raven, beating her as fast as she could, hitting her hard
enough to bend metal and shatter stone, using her supernatural strength to hold
the vampiress at bay while the wounded couple painfully staggered away and
disappeared over a knoll. The
dead girl grabbed Raven’s arm and gave her a taste of her own medicine,
violently swinging her through the air and slamming her against the grassy
ground. She brought Raven down so
viciously that a shock of pain shot up her arms and into her shoulders, and for
a few moments, she thought that maybe she’d shut the damnable vampiress up,
but when Raven’s hand locked down on her throat, she realized that she
probably hadn’t done more than amuse the diminutive titan.
Cackling as though life was nothing but a game, Raven gave Sirenna
another backhand that sent her flying, and then rose to her feet and stopped,
her arms folded over her chest again. As
Sirenna leaped back to her feet and started to charge at the vampiress again,
Raven held up her hand and snapped, “Stay your hand!” “Not
until you leave those people alone!” shrieked Sirenna, rushing forward. Raven
easily caught her and clamped on a full-nelson, then said into the dead girl’s
ear, “I intend to, now that you’ve woken up and realized what you’ve got
to do. Welcome to the real world,
child.” “I
don’t intend to stay here long, I just want to see Io again,” growled the
girl, trying to free herself from Raven’s grasp, but without much luck. “And make sure that you don’t ruin anybody’s life.” “Oh,
they were safe enough. I had a
point to make.” “By
hurting them like that?!” “It
got the job done, didn’t it?” Sirenna
twisted around and glared at Raven. “You’re
a monster.” The
vampiress grinned. “Exactly.” She
loosened her grip on the dead girl and pushed her away, then regarded her
smugly. Sirenna returned the look
coldly. “You enjoy this, don’t
you? You think it’s fun to make
me something I’m not.” Raven
raised an eyebrow. “Something
that you’re not?” “A
killer.” The
vampiress chuckled. “Oh, we’re
all killers, child. It’s in each
and every one of us. We wouldn’t
be here today if our primitive ancestors hadn’t been so effective in murdering
their Neanderthal adversaries; in essence, we’re all just killer apes. Some of us are just more comfortable with that than
others.” “I
don’t see how anybody could be comfortable with that,” scoffed the dead
girl. “Well,
perhaps if more people were comfortable in killing those that deserve it, maybe
those men wouldn’t have been around to do what they did to you and your
girlfriend. Maybe somebody else
would have killed them off long before that, and right now, you’d be cuddled
up on the couch with Io, drinking hot chocolate and watching old movies.” When
Sirenna winced and turned away, Raven grabbed her by the shoulder and spun her
back around. “You kind-hearted,
pacifist types can kid yourselves all you want, Sirenna, but sometimes you have
to spill blood in order to make the world better.
What has killing ever accomplished, you ask? Killing has put countless madmen and psychopaths into their
graves, enabling children to sleep soundly at night, unafraid of them.” “But
where does it stop? Where do you
draw the line?” Raven
smiled. “After enough of the
world’s trash has been wiped out, the answer will become obvious.
Our ancestors killed off their competitors so that they could survive.
Now we must kill off our troublemakers so that we can thrive.
Those men ruined the lives of two lovers.
Do you want to leave this plane knowing that they’re still around to
ruin the lives of others?” Keeping
her eyes on Raven’s with an effort, Sirenna whispered, “No.” “Are
you ready to go forth and make them pay for what they did to you and Io?” Swallowing
hard and after hesitating for a long time, Sirenna said, “Yes.” “Good,”
said the vampiress, and with a flick of her wrist, her emerald dagger appeared
in her hand. Sirenna started to
pull away, but Raven held her fast. “I’m
not going to hurt you, so stop squirming. You’re
just not quite ready yet . . .” Raven
carefully sliced at her wrist with the blade, and dabbed some of her crimson
blood onto the tip. She then
slipped her free hand up to the back of Sirenna’s head and held her in place.
“Don’t move around or I’ll accidentally stab you in the eye.” Using
the tip of her dagger, she began to delicately apply her blood to Sirenna’s
face, duplicating the ages-old mask she’d seen on the faces of past avengers,
except with bright red instead of black. She
lightly outlined Sirenna’s eyes, then made slender points extending upwards
and downwards from them, and after dabbing the dead girl’s lips until they
were a lustrous red, finally drew downward-turning lines extending from the
corners of her mouth, creating a frown, unlike the usual smile the avengers
seemed to go for. She took a step
back to admire her work, thought for a moment, and then added a crimson tear on
Sirenna’s cheek. Stepping back
again, Raven considered Sirenna, and then nodded. “The
red goes well with your hair,” she said, “And gives you a more unique look
than other avengers I’ve ran across. Now
you’re ready.” “Glad
you approve,” said Sirenna harshly, and then turned and walked away as Raven
licked the remaining blood off the dagger. The
vampiress shrugged and put the dagger away.
“I’ll meet you by the oak tree when you’re done.” Sirenna
froze for a few moments, but instead of turning around, she started walking
again, the crow flying above her head *
* *
The dead girl threw the empty machine gun to the dingy floor of the dark,
abandoned warehouse and stared at the bloody massacre laid out all around her.
They were all here, all five of them that had raped and ruined both her
and Io, and now, thanks to her, they were nothing more than cooling carcasses,
shredded almost beyond recognition, never to hurt anybody ever again.
What had she done?
She looked down at her hands, which were
covered with blood that wasn’t hers, and saw that they were trembling.
As a matter of fact, she felt on the verge of passing out, but resisted
it, no matter how sick the smells of gunpowder, blood, piss, and fear made her
feel. Sirenna
willed her hands to stop shaking, but she couldn’t make them quit.
These were the hands that used to paint pictures and fold little paper
birds, the hands that Io had time and again referred to as “amazing,” the
hands that she could have been used to create entire worlds on canvas or
sculptures, but were now the hands of a murderer.
A murderer five times over, as a matter of fact.
She tried to wipe the blood onto the rags that had once been her clothes,
but all it did was smear, and she shook her head.
It wasn’t going to come off, and even if it did, that wouldn’t change
what she’d done. The blood would
always be there, and she’d always be a killer.
And what was worse, she’d actually started to enjoy what she’d been
doing. When she’d thrown down the
machine gun that she’d used to mow down the last of her killers, she’d had a
smile on her face. A big one. “She
was right,” she murmured, shuddering. “I
did have it in me.” The
crow swooped down from the rafters and landed on her shoulder, cawing at her in
an insistent manner. When he
quieted down, Sirenna could hear the wail of sirens in the distance, and she
suddenly had a flash of herself landing on the hood of her killers’ car and
smashing through the windshield, screaming at the top of her lungs as she clawed
at them. She turned and saw the
wreck of the car a short distance away, partially smashed in like an accordion
from where it had crashed through the warehouse’s outer wall, careened around
for few seconds, and then collided with one of the thick steel support beams. One
of her killers lay by the wreck, the lower half of his body missing. She didn’t know if that had happened because of the wreck,
or if it was something she’d done personally.
She didn’t want to know, either. The
sounds of the sirens drew closer, and the crow nudged at her with his beak,
urging her along, and she hurriedly glanced around the interior of the warehouse
looking for an escape route, wincing at just how much blood was all over the
place. It seemed impossible that
that much blood could have come from just five people. The
crow nudged at her again, wanting her to look upwards.
When she followed the bird’s gaze, she saw a skylight far above, and
she gave the crow a sideways glance. “You’ve
got to be kidding me.” The
crow cawed in response, assuring her that he wasn’t kidding. “Halt!” Sirenna
looked back and saw several police officers standing at the hole the car had
left in the wall, their pistols up and aimed right at her.
“Hold it right there! Do
not move!” shouted one of the cops, slowly moving forward, his gun and eyes
unwavering. The
dead girl shook her head and couldn’t help but laugh ruefully.
“Where were you when Io and I needed you?” she asked, her voice
harsh. She
looked up at the skylight, crouched low, and then launched herself into the air,
soaring upwards with ease, and she not only reached the skylight, but smashed
right through it, leaving a rain of broken glass in her wake as she left the
bloody warehouse for the cool night air. She’d
moved so quickly that the cops didn’t even have a chance to fire, and they
watched the glass shatter against the floor in confusion. “Okay
. . . how are we gonna report this one?” one of the officers asked, and none
of his comrades had a ready answer for him. *
* *
Sirenna stumbled through the back alleys and streets of the city, feeling
her strength ebbing with each step, her body becoming more leaden and heavy as
death began to assert itself now that vengeance had been exacted. The crow remained on her shoulder as she staggered along,
cawing encouragement to her, promising that she didn’t have much farther to
go, and that it would all be over soon.
She tripped and crashed against a wall,
knocking the crow from her shoulder. He
flew upwards and landed on an electrical wire overhead, peering down at her in
concern and flapping his wings excitedly. Gasping
and trying to remain upright, Sirenna held onto the wall for support, doggedly
moving forward, and when she staggered around the corner, she came upon two
young women standing outside an apartment doorway.
They both jumped at the sight of her, but
that didn’t break the embrace they were in, and if anything, they clung to one
another even more tightly as they gaped at Sirenna.
“Sorry,” she grunted, wishing her head would stop spinning.
“You need any help?” one of the women
asked, looking at Sirenna with concern, and the dead girl shook her head and
smiled sadly.
“No, I’m fine,” she said, shivering as
coldness slowly seeped through her body. “I
just need to get home.” With
a groan, she pushed away from the wall and stumbled past the couple, not wanting
to ruin their moment. The crow
swooped down and landed on her shoulder again, giving her a little more
strength, and she hurried as best she could, forcing her weary body along
regardless of how badly she wanted to just lie down and bring this all to an
end. *
* *
Sirenna fell to her knees on the grass near the top of the hill, the
upper branches of the oak tree in sight, and she nearly fell onto her face, but
managed to catch herself at the last second.
Sitting on her back, the crow squawked and pecked at her, still urging
her on, and she fought with her trembling limbs, trying to get back up.
“Can’t do it,” she moaned. “Too
tired . . .”
“Ah, I see the prodigal daughter has
returned,” said a familiar voice from the top of the hill.
“I assume your mission was successful?”
The dead girl hissed in exhausted annoyance,
putting all of her strength into not completely collapsing.
“Shut up,” she growled. “Just
shut up.” She put a hand in front
of her, and then the other, slowly crawling forward.
She’d be damned if she needed Raven to get her up the hill.
“There we go,” said Raven, “That’s
the spirit I want to see. You’re almost there, and then you’ll never have to deal
with me again.”
Sirenna looked up at the vampiress, and saw
her standing at the crest of the hill, a shovel held over one shoulder like a
baseball bat, while on the other shoulder sat a big raven, who cawed when
Sirenna met eyes with her. And
standing next to the vampiress was a tall, dark-skinned young woman with long
black hair and piercing green eyes.
“Io,” whispered Sirenna, reaching
out towards her lover with a shaking hand.
“Come on,” said Io in her rich voice,
smiling warmly at the dead girl. “Just
a little farther, and we’ll never be apart again.
It’s almost over, baby.”
Unable to believe her eyes and ears, Sirenna
turned her eyes towards Raven and asked, “How?”
The vampiress grinned.
“I’ve got all sorts of connections, child.
Not only in this world, but many others as well.
Now, get up here and get reunited; you’re starting to smell.”
Ignoring the vampiress’ comment, Sirenna
struggled up the hill, her eyes locked on Io’s, and she found herself truly
smiling for the first time since this whole ordeal had began.
Though she could feel her body stiffening and resisting her, she kept
climbing, ignoring everything else except for Io.
Her fingers dug into the cool earth of the hill as she dragged herself up
step by step, foot by foot, until she was, at last, at Io’s feet, gazing up at
her lost lover with a longing that she felt to the fiber of her being.
Chuckling merrily, as she always had when
Sirenna overexerted herself and needed comforting, Io reached down and grasped
the dead girl’s ghost-white, dirt-encrusted hand in her own and easily hauled
her to her feet. “Get
up out of the grass, girl! You’ll
catch your death of a cold, if you’re not careful!” she lovingly admonished
as Sirenna felt the warmth of Io’s hand start to spread through her own body,
sweeping away the graveyard chill that had settled in. “Thanks,
luv,” murmured Sirenna, a wave of dizziness washing over her, causing her to
tip forward into Io’s waiting arms, and the dark-skinned girl picked her up
and held her close, concern in her voice. “You
overdid it at work again, didn’t you?” she asked, brushing at Sirenna’s
tangled hair. The
dead girl could barely reply, she felt so warm and sleepy in Io’s strong arms,
and she encircled her lover’s neck with her trembling arms. “A little,” she slurred, shutting her eyes and resting
her head against Io’s chest. “You’re
always overdoing it,” Io gently chided, turning and carrying Sirenna towards
the oak tree, beneath which an open hole yawned in the raw earth.
But when Sirenna opened her eyes to see where they were going, all she
saw was their apartment, whole and intact, and she knew Io was taking her over
to their overstuffed couch, which was incredibly comfortable.
“Gotta stop doing that, or you’re just gonna burn yourself out with
all that stress. And you aren’t
gonna do that as long as I’m around, you dig?” “Yup,”
sighed Sirenna, snuggling against Io. “I’ll
be more careful. I had a terrible
nightmare . . .” “Oh
yeah? Wanna tell me about it?” “I
dreamed that . . . that . . .” Sirenna said, trying to conjure up the images
that had been bothering her so much, but they flitted away from her grasp, like
ashes on the wind. It had been
something terrible, she knew, but she couldn’t pin it down anymore. “I can’t remember, Io.
I knew what it was, but—“ “Then
don’t worry about it. Forgetting
a nightmare isn’t necessarily a bad thing, huh?” Io asked as she carefully
set Sirenna down on a yielding surface of soft warmth, and then pulled the
comforter up from the foot of the couch. “How’s
about you and I catch a nap for awhile, and then later on we’ll watch some
movies and order in a pizza?” “Sounds
like a plan.” Io settled down on
the couch next to her and pulled the comforter over the both of them as Sirenna
grabbed her in a tight embrace, letting her body melt into her lover’s.
“I love you, Io. I really do.” “Hey,
I love you, too,” cooed Io, giving Sirenna a gentle kiss on the forehead.
“You’re my one and only.” “I’d
do anything for you, Io. Anything.” Io
chuckled again. “All you gotta do
right now is get some sleep and not hog the comforter, and we’ll do just
fine.” “Okay.” Just
as Sirenna started to completely drift away, there was a sharp knock at the door
of their apartment, and a loud male’s voice called out, “Open up, you lesbo
bitches! We know you’re in
there!” “Who’s
we?” demanded Io, and there was a long pause before Raven’s voice answered. “Sorry,
they had the wrong address. I think
they found all the trouble they were looking for already, and they won’t
bother you again.” “Stupid
asses,” Io muttered as she curled around Sirenna and lightly nuzzled her. “Who’s
Raven?” Sirenna whispered, feeling so heavy and warm that she could hardly
speak at all. “Who?” “Never
mind. Good night, Io.” “Good
night, Sirenna.” *
* *
Raven solidly tamped down the earth with the flat side of the shovel
blade, and then covered the grave over with the pieces of sod she’d carefully
removed earlier that evening. When
she’d finished, she examined her work, and then looked over at the two big
birds, who were standing next to the crow alongside the concealed grave, looking
like a pair of miniature mourners dressed in black finery. “Flawless,”
she said, pleased with herself, and the two birds cawed in agreement.
After intently inspecting the grave for a few moments, the crow leaned
over as if performing a courtesy bow, cawed at Raven one final time, and then
leaped into the sky, flapping his wings and spiraling up into the night, fading
away into starlit darkness. The
vampiress and the raven watched him go, and then the black bird sprang into the
air and lighted onto Raven’s shoulder, then cawed at her, which made Raven
laugh. “You
can call it soft if you want, but I liked the crow’s spunk, and though Sirenna
was yet another naïve product of the modern world, she had a good heart, which
was enough. Not everybody can be
like me, after all,” she said, and when the raven tugged on a lock of her
hair, she cackled. “And besides,
it was yet another opportunity to slide one past the powers-that-be, something
that you and I both excel in.” The
raven peered at the vampiress as they started down the hill, waited a few
moments, and then began to caw insistently while Raven snickered. “Oh, and I suppose you bringing Io back over the line for a
little while gave me a good excuse to see you again.” The
bird swatted Raven with her wings, and the vampiress grudgingly growled, “Yes,
yes, I know: I actually do have a heart, after all.
Are you satisfied, Mother?” The
raven cawed triumphantly in agreement.
This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release
And the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you
Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity
Killswitch
Engage
There's more to love than kisses and flowers.
“I can’t do it!” shrieked Sirenna, turning and running down the
dark alley so swiftly that she was a blur, leaving her confused killers behind
to wonder exactly what in the hell had just happened.
Raven & Sirenna artwork created by Nathaniel D. Smith, super-genius.
The Crow mythos is the creation of James O'Barr, which I respectfully borrowed and put my own little spin on for the purpose of this tale and the particular demands of the Hollywood Vampires / Andraxus universe. If you'd like to find out more about the Crow mythos, you can start with the official site and work your way around, as there's a plethora of information regarding it on the internet.